Normally, I would publish posts about fashion, look of the days, how to's or anything that has inspired me.
Today, I am getting [up close & personal] with things that have been going on in my life.
First I wanted to start off saying that I have learned so much in that last weeks.
I have been going through a lot of big shifts in my life and was forced to view certain things from a different perspective.
That different perspective changed my life.
When I was having these troubles, I didn't rely on anyone. I decided to keep what I was feeling to myself and go on each day trying to be as positive as I could.
But it didn't work.
Why?
First, Because instead of dealing with the nitty gritty stuff inside of me, like I should have, I kept it all in. Second, when I was relying on myself, I should have been relying on God.
I got to the point I couldn't do it myself, so I turned to Jesus.
I prayed, I cried, I was afraid.. but when I prayed, I prayed for happiness, peace, and confirmation on what things I needed to change, improve on, or just keep the same about myself.
He answered ALL my prayers.
He didn't just bring me happiness, he brought me joy.
He didn't just bring me confirmation, he brought be counsel.
He didn't just help me realize the things I need to improve on or keep the same, He changed me for the better.
When I had the feeling of being a failure, he showed me that I am anything but a failure.
He showed me I am not only a good person, I am a person of high QUALITY.
He made me see that the things that we happening were things not in my control. And to not blame myself.
It has been a short period of time since I decided to look to Jesus.
How he could bring me from such a low point, to such a high is remarkable!
Although he showed me there is nothing wrong with who I am, he makes me strive to only get better.
He taught me to stay true to myself.
& to not be bitter or resentful towards people or things that have hurt me, but continue to pray for them and their happiness, prosperity, and relationship with God.
He is such a wonderful God! I give so much thanks to Him!
When I put him first, all of the mainstream, immature, crazy, stupid things that everyone worries about no longer matters! Because I have Jesus on my side!
THANK YOU! THANK YOU! THANK YOU!
He is the joy and ruler in my life!
Going Forward, I have set some short term goals for myself.
- Become more involved in church, like Sunday School.
- Spend more time with the people that matter, like my family and friends.
- Become more involved with the community & become more involved in things that make a difference.
- DONATE MORE!
- Focus on my blog
- Continue on my weight loss adventure.
Thank you to everyone that was willing to listen to my intimate story.
xoxo
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